Whore-Ahhh

Yes.

I am a trouble-maker.

You might say "batshit crazy"

And I might agree.

I keep things "cool" and "fresh" and "withit"

Beause I am simply badass.

And yes I am pretty full of myself.

I would have said "cocky" but it's not true. I have a vagina.

-S.

"either someone shot the Duke

or I'm talking scrambled eggs "

-T.M.

I think of Moulin Rouge.

Except he punched the Duke. And the Duke is a downright dumbass.

Maniac

I think I am missing something.

NO ONE CARES WHAT I WRITE.

So I think I'll go back to my first purpose. Except that purpose is nothing but fear. (asphinctersayswhat?)

Entertain us

-S.

"lalalie"

Insanity

So incredibly pissed of
So reasonably fucked
So dangerously imbalance
So venomously angry
So distortedly thoughtful
So irrevocably rational
So gratuitously....nothing

I WANT TO SAY I AM SO FUCKING DONE I WANT TO MEAN IT BUT EVERYTIME I THINK OF IT I CANT I WANT TO BE WITH YOU I WANT TO STOP HURTING BUT EVERYTIME IT DOES I REMEMBER WHERE YOUVE BEEN AND WHERE YOU STILL ARE
SO FUCK YOU AND STOP LYING TO ME AND JUST TELL ME THE FUCKING TRUTH
IM SO SICK OF EVERY LIE YOU SHOVED DOWN MY THROAT AND HOW MUCH YOU HURT ME
THANKS FOR LEAVING ME ALONE WITH NO ONE BUT MY MIND
YOU TRULY DESERVE NOTHING

-S.

"The course of true love never did run smooth"
-Shakespeare (is a liar; true love doesn't exist as does any love or like in the world)

Gah

I've posted everyday for the past three days...
and still wait on a respond.
I don't know what respond.
Only....nothing?
I don't know.

I'm okay.
I feel bad for Patrick.
Cuz he's amazing.
I still don't know what I want.
But I know the best Christmas present could be you.

-S.
"Oh my love we've lived in troubled days
Oh my friend we have the strangest ways
All my friends on this one day of days"
-Queen(Yeah they're one of my faves)
+Mike's really not anymore.

Muah

Just updating all the blogs. Except my books. So basically this and That*Shit.

So....
Yeah....

This blog does nothing to open up the mind of people I aim it towards.
Hate and War is the worlds two messiah's.
-S.
I DONT WANT A QUOTE!

+btw Maniac's kinda insane....

.phail. .i am.

In general?:
learning
annoyed
trying
missing
lost

I'm learning what to keep expecting of you.
It's not a lot.

Annoyed how much you don't care.
About the list above.

Trying to figure something out.
Because I hate it so much.

Missing you...being there to talk to.
Because you're my bestie.

And
Lost of all realistic thought. Even though it is becoming much more impossible.

Do you have a problem with me? Like being around you?
Then why did you do all of it? Why did u start it then?
I say it so much so dear gods answer me, I like it when you're around. You know that but don't like it when I am?
I hate where you've been, and what I notice and what I wish for.
I wish I could change how I feel and how it is...

-S.
"Sometimes the way it is, isn't the way it should be."
-Australia

Life?

I don't know.
I'd like to.
But I don't care.
Either way
I'm happy.
The only time I'm not
is when they fawn
over you
and don't realize the
obvious...

That's not my problem though
It's theres.
Love you.
-S.
"Sooner or later the mouse's clicking will get the book's attention calling it to themselves, and away from you"
-Frank Mata III
"You're free to leave me, just don't deceive me, and please believe me when I say I love you"
-Narcoleptic Argentinian

Subconcious

So?
What does this mean?
Where does this go?
Sadness?
Confusion?
Happiness?
To agree?
Do you belive me now?
That I won't hurt you?
[I wont]
Promises?
Is that what that kiss meant?
Or was it pitty?
[I don't believe that]

But what does it mean?
What the hell do you mean?
[You know I like you]
[I know you like me]
Is that what it meant?

Are you thinking about it?
Figuring something out?
[You don't need to think when it comes to me]
Can you just do?
Please?

[Because I want you,
and I want you to be mine.
My territorial claim.
Because you're amazing.]
Why do you keep doing it?
Looking like a whore?
When I know your not?
But it seems like it?
[That's not a big deal right now]

[I want to know what you meant]
What do you mean?
Where do we stand?
Are just going to be friends?
Although we like each other?

[Guesses for right now]
-S.
"it's just paint
they're just words
and fingers are for feeling
fists are for beating
scabs are for healing
and blood is for bleeding"
-The Matches